Trivia

I shouted at him in full public view- one evening in crowded Nariman Point in front of Nirmal Building......

He called me up and invited me to Singapore in a tone, that only true well wishers can use......

Thank You God for these small acts which bring back Faith....

All in a Row

Why do all Gains and Losses happen together in a row...
For example sometime back I faced personal problems, health issues, professional flak all together.....
And now Suddenly - he , she, they -come back and say "sorry", my doc says- FO don't waste my time, u r fit-not as a fiddle , but quite doable, and then my Boss writes appreicative emails.....

Waiting for the next churn of events...wat will it be this time

Afterthought

Everyone makes mistakes...but only few have the courage to accept them and move on...........

When Dreams don't come true

No am not a pessimist- years of tough situations, good friends , interacting with people and absorbing new ideas and different viewpoints have programmed me into always looking at brighter side of things, trying to minimise losses wherever possible and move on.....
So today when somebody asks me this- "what do you do when dreams don't come true" my answer is ready- " I wake up!!!"
Broken promises, failures, health pressures, truamatic personal situations- these are all events afterall...and one can't influence events...one can definitely influence thoughts and ideas of oneself if not anybody else....
Yes it hurts to be betrayed, yes it hurts to be cheated, taken for a ride , to be victimised etc.....Fight on, don't lose the battle, don't die everyday......
You owe this to you...........

For U

There is only one person in this world who
manages to ruffle me really bad....
manages to make me cry within minutes....
manages to make me feel guilty, angry, upset..........
Am forever clutching at straws...
making excuses....
shying away....
Trying to Hide....
under the scrutiny of this one person
Many times I give vent to anger and frustation by shouting back...
Saying hurtful things...
Being alternately indignant and sarcastic...
Many times have I wished I did not get so defensive
Many times have I tried to be prepared with smart repartees....
But all comes to ZERO....
Cos She is the only one who loves me more than I love myself....and every act of hers is meant only to make me better and better...
And she is also the only one in the world who knows when i have been crying and try to mask the same while talking........
Thank U Maa.....
I can never be good enough but I will always Try........

For M....

This must be for Better....We don't know yet....but am convinced the daylight will be bright and full of warmth...

Just don't lose hope and don't stop believing in yourself....

I try to give you strength and you give me mine...

Hope is beautiful....

Life Improvement Program

Am on a "Life improvement Program" just like one has "Performance Improvement Program" that organizations frequently dole out to their hapless employees....
I have given myself three months for the same...I will utlise these three months to take care of myself, try to assimilate different thought processes, enhance the quality of my life in terms or learnings, transactions, uselfulness etc.
I will also improve my health and nutrition and fitness levels- this is a investment for future that I need to do as soon as possible
I will not dwell on the past, not wallow in self pity, not give up, not be lazy .............

The challenge is to be strong enough to weather the storm raging around me currently...I need all my strength around me and all my courage.....

I have reached a Nadir, now its time to rise up.....

Some meaningful Things

Some Friends make me feel special.....Like she called me up to share her big news with me...
Or he staying back for the weekend at my behest
And another driving the Car to my house - driving 30 kms or more on a sunday
Or she coming all the way to Bandra to meet me...
You win some u lose some...
I have lost a lot...but some of these relationships formed out of nothing make life somewhat meaningful...

Random thoughts

I realised- what I really find intolerable in people in the inability to have sound judgement in oneself- that is being unable to decide whom to trust and whom not to.....
You owe it to yourself and to others who trust you to be able to come up as a person of strong insight....