For M....

This must be for Better....We don't know yet....but am convinced the daylight will be bright and full of warmth...

Just don't lose hope and don't stop believing in yourself....

I try to give you strength and you give me mine...

Hope is beautiful....

Alone @ Office

Time -6.45pm

Place -A high rise in Nariman Point- the Business District of Mumbai

Am in my Cabin watching the rain outside- and the raging sea.....

Am waiting to send a Offer Letter to a Candidate- am sure the candidate is waiting too with equal or more impatience somewhere in Bengaluru...

I was chatting with a Friend- told him I have learnt to make noises like a cat and

dog..... Of course he has stopped reacting to my statements long ago.....

My Bro and Bhabhi are waiting at home, they will leave for UK by Sunday...and I will

be all alone again....

I did not choose this Life, it chose me.....I have chosen very few things in Life.....

Free Fall can be useful sometimes

The rains have stopped now, the Offer letter is yet to leave my inbox

Life Improvement Program

Am on a "Life improvement Program" just like one has "Performance Improvement Program" that organizations frequently dole out to their hapless employees....
I have given myself three months for the same...I will utlise these three months to take care of myself, try to assimilate different thought processes, enhance the quality of my life in terms or learnings, transactions, uselfulness etc.
I will also improve my health and nutrition and fitness levels- this is a investment for future that I need to do as soon as possible
I will not dwell on the past, not wallow in self pity, not give up, not be lazy .............

The challenge is to be strong enough to weather the storm raging around me currently...I need all my strength around me and all my courage.....

I have reached a Nadir, now its time to rise up.....

Some meaningful Things

Some Friends make me feel special.....Like she called me up to share her big news with me...
Or he staying back for the weekend at my behest
And another driving the Car to my house - driving 30 kms or more on a sunday
Or she coming all the way to Bandra to meet me...
You win some u lose some...
I have lost a lot...but some of these relationships formed out of nothing make life somewhat meaningful...

A heart that hurts

He to her:

" I Love you- Do you think I am Lying"

" You fight a lot"

" Your No-Nos irritate me"

" You put a Holier-Than-Thou Attitude"

" I want to be intimate with you-but you don't let me"

" On second thoughts I don't want to get into any entanglements later "

" You don't mince words when you are angry- I am scared of your temper"

" Better stay away.....Too much trouble "

She to Him

" Hey you forgot something - I have a Heart that hurts........

The So-Called Alpha Females

Once upon a time not so long ago- I used to feel proud to be called a Alpha Female.Not any more cos lot of unexpected events made me realise -that fancy names and jargons doesn't mean a thing-Handsome is what handsome does.

I strongly feel Character is what one does when no-one is looking......And the Few alpha females I know or thought I know-sadly turned out to be different versions of Gold-Diggers- Who cry "Wolf"-when their self interests get hampered- and their self interests are motivated by pure material haves and have-nots. One guy- friend, who seems to be a checklist match for loads of girls( thank God he has got married now and will cease to be of any interest to any of these girls)-his equation with many of these women, and the consequences made me learn a lot of things-

All of these women sooner or later would start crying from the rooftop about how mean and cruel and disgusting a person he is- Interestingly this happens when each of them have tried and failed to get into a relationship with him. They have not been crying "wolf " when they see him rejecting someone else's charms. The "truth" and "Realisation" dawns on them only when he rejects them. Nothing wrong in that- except maybe one needs to accept responsbility for one's actions as well- and agree and say"ah well I thought he looks good on paper, and I thought things could work out between us , so I gave him lot of leeway, but he was too smart for me", instead of saying nasty cruel things about him and him alone.

Funny thing is each of them have expected me to stand by them and support them cos I happen to be one female buddy of the guy- and since I have always believed a little too much in my conservative teachings of the nuns- have always reprimanded him- though going by logic alone- it has never been any of my business.....

I wonder if they had a close guy friend- who was in a similar situation with other girls- would they have ever risked their friendships to speak out what they thought was ethically right......

The Scapegoat

Met up a friend after a long time- and some of the old stories came back to my mind.
It amazes me how even the most courageous of people choose to clutch at straws when it comes to facing some bitter truths. This friend had been at the recieving end of some unfair and unfavourable gossip by people whom she trusted and who were close to her......Unfortunately there are wheels within wheels and one close person is linked to another close person and taking them to task means standing to risk a very valuable relationship- So quietly an outsider who knew each of them in a restricted capacity was made the scapegoat -and no one was hurt-except tht the concerned person was made a nice little scapegoat uneccesarily and before she knew what hit her she had been nailed and crucified .............
I sometimes wonder if life is always so strange for everyone in all parts of the world?